when it seems too good to be true, it prolly is.. as i wrote earlier, things were goin great.. but errrrr.. i hate the fact that my every move is being monitored altho i don't do anything bad (if u know me, i really am a goody-two-shoe.. like for real.. tho at times i act all hardcore & perverted).. y am i bein scorned for doin somethin productive? just because i don't announce what chapter i'm reading, how many hours of studyin i will be doin, doesn't give anyone the right to scold me.. dang, do i even have to report the amount of oxygen i breathe!!???! i'm bein led to believe that it's becomin that horrible.. the question of "depression" befalls me.. and yet, the instigator does not notice that it is the perpetuated action that leads me closer and closer.. i can't handle this anymore.. shouldn't my feelings be considered? y do i have to cry myself to sleep most of the time.. i hate this feelin.. i feel suffocated..
and friends.. where are they?.. have u ever head of the quote "among many, one".. i may be surrounded by friends, but where are they when i need them.. people often come to me when they have probs, but i can't find that one person to confide in.. it was easier then.. people weren't as busy or preoccupied.. i don't blame them.. they have their lives.. but still.. it's just these few months that i find hard to contact people.. i make time.. i listen.. i console.. when's my turn? (i don't want to be selfish, but i think it's about time that i take care of myself for once)
*burned rice*
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put the above entry in the back burner.. today, i attended ryan's 1st football game against st. bede (last year's champs)!.. the battle wasn't only on the field it was also off the field (btwn mother dearest & i).. back to ryan.. they tried really hard & put all their effort to performing well.. i'm so proud of them.. ryan was the runner most of the time.. he was super fast.. the game lasted till 5, so i was pretty exhausted videotaping & bein their temporary "cheerleader".. i must've embarassed them.. i think that from now on, i should permanently wear a t-shirt that says "they're not my kids" whenever i attend any school function.. for pete's sake, y am i constantly commended for "raising good children".. they're not my children.. they're my mom's children.. haha.. the score was 35-0 with holy family at the losing end.. that's pretty darn good considering that last year holy's score was 65-0.. defense improved greatly this year.. mucho proud.. congrats, coach alvin..
the cutest thing -- josh & alani were holdin hands & piggy-back riding.. aww, josh has had the biggest crush on alani since kinder.. they were practicing cheerleading moves.. i told josh that he can apply to be one when he's in USC.. haha.. big future ahead of him.. come on, now.. he'll have a dozen pretty girls around him.. =P *wink wink*
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when it seems too good to be true, it prolly is.. as i wrote earlier, things were goin great.. but errrrr.. i hate the fact that my every move is being monitored altho i don't do anything bad (if u know me, i really am a goody-two-shoe.. like for real.. tho at times i act all hardcore & perverted).. y am i bein scorned for doin somethin productive? just because i don't announce what chapter i'm reading, how many hours of studyin i will be doin, doesn't give anyone the right to scold me.. dang, do i even have to report the amount of oxygen i breathe!!???! i'm bein led to believe that it's becomin that horrible.. the question of "depression" befalls me.. and yet, the instigator does not notice that it is the perpetuated action that leads me closer and closer.. i can't handle this anymore.. shouldn't my feelings be considered? y do i have to cry myself to sleep most of the time.. i hate this feelin.. i feel suffocated..
and friends.. where are they?.. have u ever head of the quote "among many, one".. i may be surrounded by friends, but where are they when i need them.. people often come to me when they have probs, but i can't find that one person to confide in.. it was easier then.. people weren't as busy or preoccupied.. i don't blame them.. they have their lives.. but still.. it's just these few months that i find hard to contact people.. i make time.. i listen.. i console.. when's my turn? (i don't want to be selfish, but i think it's about time that i take care of myself for once)
*burned rice*
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put the above entry in the back burner.. today, i attended ryan's 1st football game against st. bede (last year's champs)!.. the battle wasn't only on the field it was also off the field (btwn mother dearest & i).. back to ryan.. they tried really hard & put all their effort to performing well.. i'm so proud of them.. ryan was the runner most of the time.. he was super fast.. the game lasted till 5, so i was pretty exhausted videotaping & bein their temporary "cheerleader".. i must've embarassed them.. i think that from now on, i should permanently wear a t-shirt that says "they're not my kids" whenever i attend any school function.. for pete's sake, y am i constantly commended for "raising good children".. they're not my children.. they're my mom's children.. haha.. the score was 35-0 with holy family at the losing end.. that's pretty darn good considering that last year holy's score was 65-0.. defense improved greatly this year.. mucho proud.. congrats, coach alvin..
the cutest thing -- josh & alani were holdin hands & piggy-back riding.. aww, josh has had the biggest crush on alani since kinder.. they were practicing cheerleading moves.. i told josh that he can apply to be one when he's in USC.. haha.. big future ahead of him.. come on, now.. he'll have a dozen pretty girls around him.. =P *wink wink*